Charity wrote in a journal entry dated 14th April 2007 that Paris nearly killed her in the visitor’s room in jail: “He slammed the table into me, pinning me against the concrete wall behind me. He cut off my air. I was in shock, paralyzed. I thought I was going to die there. Then he pulled the table back, I caught my breath, and he slammed it into me again.”
Despite his crimes and aggression, Charity forgave Paris; she visits him in prison regularly. “As a parent, I’ve always believed you give your children unconditional love,” Charity told Piers Morgan. “He obviously has a mental health issue – he’s a psychopath – but I don’t know how to stop loving my children.”
Charity writes in her book that she cannot give up on Paris as she loves him ‘with as much intensity as I have since the day I found out I was pregnant with him’.
Nevertheless, Charity is wary that Paris will hurt her or her son, Phoenix, if he gets released from prison. “It’s possible to love him and forgive him and still be afraid of him,” Charity said.
Paris told Piers Morgan that he’s incapable of committing such a crime again and would resort to harming himself if the dark thoughts threatened to manifest themselves outwardly. He explained:
“The only person I’m dangerous to is myself because the very moment I feel the chains slipping and the bars bending, the very moment I detect that dark part of myself coming back out again, I would remove myself from the equation.”
Phoenix knows about his brother and his crimes. He’s spoken to Paris on the phone but hasn’t met him in person. “I am setting an example for Phoenix,” Charity told The New York Post. “An example of how unconditional love and forgiveness look and behave.”
Charity acknowledges that she might one day have to choose between Phoenix and Paris. She said: “There will come a point in time where I will not be able to mother both of my children and when the time comes to make that choice, Phoenix will come first.”
